As I was reading Chelese's blog and reading the words six months, it just hit me that our boys have been home for six months! Part of me reacts, "WOW! Six months! I can't believe they have been with us for half of a year! Time flys!"
But most of me, is like, "What? They have only been here for six months?" I just feel like they have always been here. That they have always been a part of our family. It is a different sitiuation for me to be a mother to a 14 month old and 24 month old that have only been with me for six months. I knew this was going to be the case when we adopted. But honestly, I like so many had doubts about how I would actually feel about my new boys. You know the question everyone adoptive parent has but never talks about until after they have adopted and proved themselves wrong. "Will I love the boys as much as my biological children?" I was so afraid that my answer would be No.
So, I often find myself laughing out loud at my thoughts now. I will be thinking something like.....how Ian got his long finger like toes from me and how Chad got his lively personality from Livia. I have to actually remind myself that I did not give birth to these children! (Which adds to the long list of things that really makes me feel like I am losing it!) I mean I am pretty darn pale! I think it would be quite impossible for someone with such beautiful dark skin to come out of me. But that does not matter. Chad and Ian are still my beautiful boys and I am still their mommy.
So, to me, it still seems strange that they have only been home for six months. It seems strange, that over 1/2 of Ian's life and 3/4 of Chad's life has been without me. Yes, I knew that would be the case all along. I just didn't expect that they would feel like they were mine. I didn't expect myself to forget that I adopted them.
I have to thank God for letting these two grow in my heart way before I met them........they have been with me all along.
Here are some pics taken today of the two little ones. We are loving the weather!
First, we picked some strawberries from our garden. Yummy!
Then we played in the pool.
We had lots of fun!