Ok, here's the deal. For Livia's 10th birthday gift we gave her a card that said she could pick a Mommy and Liva trip (within driving distance). She picked the windy city of Chicago. This was no big suprise she has wanted to go there for years.
I was really excited when we decided this would be her gift! We needed some girl time together. And I really needed a break from the boys. As the time for departure comes closer I am starting to think a 3-4 hour breaks is all I really needed. I am a nervous wreck about leaving them! I am actually starting to feel very nauseous. And if I didn't have a little girl so excited about the trip, I would be cancelling it today!
I can easily count the hours I have been away from Ian and Chad. Two dates - 6 hours, Mommy and me dates with my biggies - 12 hours, Livia's surgery - 9 hours, two trips to Walmart - 2 hours, Doctor's appt -2 hours, hair appt - 1.5 hours = less than 40 hours in over 4 months! Yes, I know I need to get away more (and have my hair done again!). This weekend I will be away from them for 48 hours all at once! I am not for sure how me and the boys are going to handle that.
I know all the boys will be fine without me. Jamey has some girls in our youth coming over to help him out. (That cracks me up, I somehow manage to do it all by myself everyday!) I am glad he will have the help, because I know it will be less stressful for him. Of course, he will also have Paker who is a wonderful helper! He was asked to stay all night with a close friend. He had told the friend "yes." Then changed his mind when he realized Daddy would be alone with the boys that night. He wanted to be there too!
I just worry what will be going through their little minds. Will they be worrying that I will never return, like so many people have already in their short little lives?